Sing Your Song

Never expected myself to finish a year of medical school (that is if i dont have to repeat papers of course) i guess everyone entered medical school with no idea of how hard it'll be (except for those who did a few years of 'research work' on the level of difficulty of medical studies) until we experience it for ourselves. But thank God for good friends who was willing to help me out and who stood by me throughout. Vish and I are just close that we can share just anything. He and I are just like 2 tall people needing each other for support. He is also the blur-case sotong who keeps misplacing his things and he'll be like an old grandmother who just got dementia looking for his things. Joshua Lee on the other hand is the annoying lil brother who can stop shooting me in my face. but it does feel different with him around. wish he could be everywhere and anywhere at anytime. and i still remember the pathetic look on my face whenever he oversleeps and couldnt get up. eve

Being to an annual dinner is quite a big thing for me I would say. probably cause i've never been to one. but I hardly prepared for it anyway. No specific reason- just dont think all the hassle is necessary to begin with. So, boldly i went without makeup and just tied up all my hair cause i cant think of any other way i can style my hair prepared to look like the odd one out without makeup as i'll look really blunt beside any girl who has makeup but it turned out fine at the end. and the good thing is- i dont need to remove makeup when i get back. i think thats how i'm gonna go for the next few annual dinners ;) When asked for feedback from some of the girls, most said they wouldnt wanna go again next year. i guess when they do so much to prepare for the annual dinner and when the dinner didnt turn out as they expected, it does get a bit disappointing. I on the other hand, didnt prepare as much so i dont feel disappointed at all. i really did enjoy myself with the food

I realized i have one weakness which i noticed only after a series of card signings. once i dont know how to answer a question, no point asking me any other questions already, because I wont know the answer. my mind will straight away be blank after i realized i couldnt answer one question. I know that is bad but that was what happened to me in matriculation too. i guess after studying so much and thought i would do well and when i dont, i get really tensed. Oh God, help me overcome. I need you more than ever now. I dont wanna run away again. i wanna face my fears but with your strength, not my own. I just wanna rest in you. help me stay focused!

I was thinking about how the statement 'YOUR JOY IS MY STRENGTH' works. It never occured to me that its actually that simple. I have always been struggling with giving my life, surrendering whole heartedly to HIM. even until now. there are some things which i cannot bring myself to give up or let go. Some things which i hold too dear. I remember a story my friend once shared. It is a story of a girl who wanted a beautiful necklace she saw in a shop. She worked so hard to earn enough money to buy that necklace. When she bought it, she was sooooooooooo happy beyond words. nothing can take the necklace away from her. Until her dad came and said, ''Darling, could you hand over your necklace? to me? your father?'' She was of course VERY RELUCTANT. but in the end, she did. and when she handed over the necklace to her father, her father took out a box. Inside the box contains another necklace of similar design and structure, only this time, this necklace is REAL! its

As i finished a chapter of anatomy so late at night, or so early in the morning, I felt a sudden urge to WORSHIP  so i closed the book before proceeding to the next chapter and got up of my seat and started singing praises to HIM. The more i sing, the more i sing. this lead on to more singing. song after song i feel his presence overwhelm me. and i knew He was here. Immediately i asked for forgiveness. In brokenness i seeked for His grace and mercy and presented to HIM my requests, mainly for CF in Perdana University. My heart felt heavy as we have been stagnant for the past few months. well, thats how i felt, at least. we need a REVIVAL! REVIVAL! is what we need. going deep into the roots. Many have been far. they want to return but they cant seem to find the path that leads them back to HIM. But GOD knows. That is when i come into the picture. I am a FRIEND to them. A friend that is to guide and lead them with the HOLY SPIRIT leading me. TIME TO STEP OUT FROM COMFORT ZONE I think