a side track from end year post - this week

This week is the last week of semester one before the 3 weeks holiday and then MAJOR exam! how has this week been for you? 

This week has been quite a bad week for me. wanna know why? here it goes.

Ever felt disappointed? ever felt like you're being taken for granted? I did. I JUST did. i'm glad at least i have that experience of being taken for granted, rather than being like a lamb not knowing anything, then come walking into the lion's den. 

Sometimes, i expect a lot from others because i did the same for them and i thought its only natural that they do the same for me. but i was wrong. Not everyone is as concerned. Not everyone is considerate, not everyone thinks about me, not everyone thinks for me. that made me really sad. i was sad, disappointed, angry. i felt like just giving up. I dont like the idea of being taken for granted, the idea of being invisible, the idea of playing any side role. Since young, i am always given the limelight by my parents, my family, cousins, friends. It is never easy to go from the limelight to backstage. i've always like performing. showing the crowd what i can do. until recently. I've learned that LIFE is not ALWAYS about me. i learned to stop being the center of attraction. i've learned to quiet down to not just know people on the superficial but to take them seriously and help them when they are in need, to encourage them when they are in need. so why cant others do the same for me? 

Guess i'm really expecting too much. People are just selfish. Every man for himself. i so strongly declared to myself yesterday. i dont need to TOLERATE. I dont live to serve others. I live for God and myself. and i went to bed with that input. 

This morning when i was reading my daily devotion, the Lord just struck me with His teaching 

Mark 10:43-45 says 

But it shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant. 

And whoever would be first among you must be the slave of all 

For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to give His life as a ransom for many. 

This one verse is enough to change my whole concept of what i think about serving others. 

This is one thing that i still have yet to learn and adopt into my lifestyle. get ready my lifestyle of serving others. 

This week i have been losing my temper. People around me are really feeling the pressure. Really sorry about that. Apologies. I must learn to have a spirit ready and willing to serve. in not just the area i want to serve but in every area which needs me to serve. whether its catering to the needs of others or just serving the Lord in church. Serving should not be limited to just in church. I must learn to humbly come and serve. 

But guess what? there is always 2 sides to a coin. My bad week was buffered by a series of delightful events that took place in my life. 

1. Nakhieeran sent me a christmas package! so thoughtful of him. really didnt expect him to do that. :) 

2. Joel gave me my first Christmas gift of the year! i was really delighted when i opened it and saw the gift. it was BEAUTIFUL. Beautiful is the word to describe it. (pics will up soon)

3. Joel already got me a car sticker for my car (i have yet to collect the car). he has already thought of everything for me. He just caters to my needs even before i think or even mention about it. 

4. Elton gave me a keychain to hang in my car (also even before i get the car) 

5. Mom already gave me CDs to play in the car (everyone IS excited!)

Thank God for He still sees me through the storms! and i believe He will not leave me alone. He still sends people to be an encouragement to me :)