Sing Your Song

I realized i have one weakness which i noticed only after a series of card signings. once i dont know how to answer a question, no point asking me any other questions already, because I wont know the answer. my mind will straight away be blank after i realized i couldnt answer one question. I know that is bad but that was what happened to me in matriculation too. i guess after studying so much and thought i would do well and when i dont, i get really tensed. Oh God, help me overcome. I need you more than ever now. I dont wanna run away again. i wanna face my fears but with your strength, not my own. I just wanna rest in you. help me stay focused!

I was thinking about how the statement 'YOUR JOY IS MY STRENGTH' works. It never occured to me that its actually that simple. I have always been struggling with giving my life, surrendering whole heartedly to HIM. even until now. there are some things which i cannot bring myself to give up or let go. Some things which i hold too dear. I remember a story my friend once shared. It is a story of a girl who wanted a beautiful necklace she saw in a shop. She worked so hard to earn enough money to buy that necklace. When she bought it, she was sooooooooooo happy beyond words. nothing can take the necklace away from her. Until her dad came and said, ''Darling, could you hand over your necklace? to me? your father?'' She was of course VERY RELUCTANT. but in the end, she did. and when she handed over the necklace to her father, her father took out a box. Inside the box contains another necklace of similar design and structure, only this time, this necklace is REAL! its ...

As i finished a chapter of anatomy so late at night, or so early in the morning, I felt a sudden urge to WORSHIP  so i closed the book before proceeding to the next chapter and got up of my seat and started singing praises to HIM. The more i sing, the more i sing. this lead on to more singing. song after song i feel his presence overwhelm me. and i knew He was here. Immediately i asked for forgiveness. In brokenness i seeked for His grace and mercy and presented to HIM my requests, mainly for CF in Perdana University. My heart felt heavy as we have been stagnant for the past few months. well, thats how i felt, at least. we need a REVIVAL! REVIVAL! is what we need. going deep into the roots. Many have been far. they want to return but they cant seem to find the path that leads them back to HIM. But GOD knows. That is when i come into the picture. I am a FRIEND to them. A friend that is to guide and lead them with the HOLY SPIRIT leading me. TIME TO STEP OUT FROM COMFORT ZONE I t...

I feel terrible. Terrible is just the word to describe it. I have never felt worse on a Christmas day. Christmas has always been sweeeeeet for me! Up till this year. 1.        I have to STUDY! during Christmas 2.        We didn’t have open house this year 3.        We didn’t have church service on Christmas! What?? Yea. So we went to Full Gospel Church 4.        Everyone is just in a bad mood 5.        We didn’t go give presents to bless the people at the nursing home 6.        Had a tiff with my brother (as usual) 7.        Even decorating the Christmas tree seemed dreadful 8.        I REALLY SHOULDN’T HAVE CAME BACK FOR CHRISTMAS The only good thing was the fact that I received more Christmas greetings and wishes than I exp...

This week is the last week of semester one before the 3 weeks holiday and then MAJOR exam! how has this week been for you?  This week has been quite a bad week for me. wanna know why? here it goes. Ever felt disappointed? ever felt like you're being taken for granted? I did. I JUST did. i'm glad at least i have that experience of being taken for granted, rather than being like a lamb not knowing anything, then come walking into the lion's den.  Sometimes, i expect a lot from others because i did the same for them and i thought its only natural that they do the same for me. but i was wrong. Not everyone is as concerned. Not everyone is considerate, not everyone thinks about me, not everyone thinks for me. that made me really sad. i was sad, disappointed, angry. i felt like just giving up. I dont like the idea of being taken for granted, the idea of being invisible, the idea of playing any side role. Since young, i am always given the limelight by my parents, my fa...

Year 2012 is going to be history! what have i done this year? This year has been a year of the clear display of God's plans for my life. I had great plans for myself about how i'm going to spend the next year and how i'm going to lead my life and about who my friends are going to be. but the Lord has a bigger picture. He has a greater purpose for me. Skills I developed this year: 1. I never knew i can accept people who get on my nerves! people who just piss me off with certain things they do. selfish or inconsiderate or just plain annoying. but I've learn to embrace them as they are. Yes, i might dislike some things of them but if i cant do anything about it, I just have to learn to love them and pray for them. which is quite a hard thing to do. Cause, I have never acted in this manner. Praying for those i really dislike? ahhahha. so not my thing. But the Lord has taught me to love them even more as they are more in need than i am. Really thank God for such a skill...

Everyone says its important to keep a blog, and so here i am. publishing my first blogpost for viewing.  Just for updates, I am currently pursuing my medical degree,  at Perdana uni, the place i wanna be  So keeping up with the paces is not easy as it seems  but i really hope i'll be able to live up to my dreams  Hahahah! how does that sound for a start?  Till then :)